May the grass be greener on our side

It’s in the plush of the night and a dream stirs me awake and indeed I wake up saying NO GOD. I dream of an invitation to leave my marriage, my husband and its scary. I am thankful I finally say NO GOD. For me it may have been just a dream but for many it may be a real invitation answered to or tempting to answer to and quickly so. For what have we been taught, if its not working, leave and quickly so.

I pray but my body is breaking out in sweat and I cannot sleep coz THIS IS IMPORTANT. SO I pray for marriages, I pray for what I believe makes the heartbeat of God. I pray for THIS because its what I believe.

I especially dedicate to those married and have to live apart for long periods of time due to one reason or another, maybe work, study or other unavoidable reason.

I dedicate this prayer to those who are together but the walls of pain, deceit, doubt and mistrust have made the distance between the two feel like mars and venus, heaven and earth.

May the grass be greener on our side

May our hearts be filled with courage

For you are the God of more

May we in this corrupt generation be unquenchable in our belief of your word

May the fire of our vows burn ever so bright

May we fight for what we saw back then and we what hope to see

May our youth be spent for one another

May this be for posterity, for a testimony and a legacy of your grace

May we see the best in each other

May we build each other up and not tear down

May the fire of your word and promise burn every lingering doubt and dark desire

May we know the adventure that is ours within our marriages

May we ever look to thee for grace

You never said it was going to be easy but you promised to be with us

May we look to you when  we are down and out, when we are old and grey, when we are confused

Remove every deceit from our hearts, give us a heart like yours

May we stand for the long haul

May we fight for our marriages oh God

May we never give up the fight on our knees

May you build for us this house

May we build with the rocks of your faithfulness

May the singles trust that it shall be well with them as they keep faithfulness

May every doubt be quenched by your abundance and presence

For you are the God of more

For you are our ordainer, our source

May our hearts never faint in the journey

May the challenges we face ever make us stronger

May the distance between us only serve to strengthen our passion for each other and our resolve

For you are making our grass greener!

And indeed you are making us flourish in your courts, ever praising thee

Tell your heart to beat again


Something clicked in me that made me think deeply. In the journey of our walk with God, fatigue and delayed longing face us from time to time. “Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.” Proverbs 13:12, NLT

We are active in the church; give faithfully and participate as best as we know how. Then we wait. And wait some more. We feel mad at God because we are expecting a quick reward. Why do I give and you do not see? Well, first giving is a principle. Give and it will be given back to you, remember that verse? In full measure, pressed together, running over. Secondly God loves a cheerful giver and we are to give not out of compulsion but with joy. Thirdly God is not a mocker, what we reap, we sow. Thus I encourage you to know these truths by heart.

Tell your heart to beat again

Tell your heart to beat again

However, in our human shortcomings and the sinful world we live in, we SEE others around us doing well and yes even doing better. We are tempted to complain as we compare ourselves with those we feel we should be in the same league or even that we should be ahead of. We feel like telling those closest to us how tired we are of waiting. After all, isn’t it just a click away or simply a smiley face? We itch to tell them how we are bored and feel neglected. Its fine to share our griefs that we may find comfort, and find joy in the friendship but does this promote their faith in God? Does it speak life, as life and death is in the power of the tongue? After you complain, so what? Will I have made anything better? Again if I shut up and die inside I will just become bitter and weary of the walk. I will shed what I have already gained by faith this far? So I must speak. Speak to myself, speak to my soul and not be silent or I will sink to the grave of despair.

Even as my fingers are itching to type away my disillusionment to my friend, thanks to the whatsapp that’s so quick to share the feeling, the Lord whispers these words to me.

Those the Lord chooses will inherit the earth.

Again, thanks to Mr. Google, I search up the verse and I get two of them.

Psalm 25:12-15

12 Who, then, are those who fear the Lord? He will instruct them in the ways they should choose.[b]
13 They will spend their days in prosperity, and their descendants will inherit the land.
14 The Lord confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them.
15 My eyes are ever on the Lord, for only he will release my feet from the snare.

Psalm 65:1-2, 4-5

1 Praise awaits[b] you, our God, in Zion; to you our vows will be fulfilled.
2 You who answer prayer, to you all people will come.

4 Blessed are those you choose and bring near to live in your courts!
We are filled with the good things of your house, of your holy temple.

5 You answer us with awesome and righteous deeds, God our Savior,
the hope of all the ends of the earth and of the farthest seas,

His is a blessing we cannot force. He chooses whom to show mercy and grace on. Am not saying be lazy and boom around and work on the premise that somehow God will choose you. What I am saying is a situation where you feel sidelined by the king. Where you feel forgotten. As you are being faithful in the kingdom, your time which is His best timing will come. And His enduring promise will be fulfilled. Remember His love remains, His promise sure.

The journey of our lives is different, each must walk with His God, in a relationship and in different seasons. It is important to encourage each other, but when all is said and done, we were called alone and must answer alone.

I dedicate to you the explanation Danny Gokey gives behind his song : TELL YOUR HEART TO BEAT AGAIN

“You should know people” from my younger self

As you read, I want to warn you that this is a post I should have posted long long ago; about 2 years ago. I don’t know whether you will like me after this confession but read on. I am grateful I did not delete it 🙂 I can reminisce what it meant to be younger…. 🙂 and later share how much I have grown.

I just wanted to be stunning… Now I am only stunning on the inside – which is what matters first but oh the outside also matters. (You see my ladder was leaning on the wrong wall… visiting a quack I didn’t know was a quack) I forgive that hairdresser but it has given me a deep resolve to change what I can and accept what I cannot change.

What I can change – Soon I’ll be able to hire a personal stylist and will pay them smart – what a woe to fall in the wrong hands of unprofessional hair care-givers…. God save me from this disaster – Professionalism or expertise should be rewarded…

What I cannot change – all my investment in hair has been thwarted… So I will next invest more carefully –

1. By shaving … Like  I had before

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or 2. by hiring a professional hairdresser… That takes me back to my first option; I can change something – to work my hands and brains to hire a professional… And I mean a real professional; not a professional quack – one who can match the shape of my head to the style… BTW I really don’t want to rant but I am … would you have guessed it was my first day at work and I intended to outshine them all???….


Now I know something of what Matt 6:19-20 meant  What a welcome to a new place… MOMBASA known for its pleasure. Not so for me that time. But I so love Mombasa… So I said “I might as well preach a sermon out of this or at least have a note or better still a blog post on more of this…” This is because I believe in a personal, practical God who cares about how we feel and look. Remember He was so down-earth as to provide wine for the village wedding at Cana of Galilee… or to sort out the lady whose daily life was marred by the issue of blood… He cares about your personal need – when I was younger and in school I got to experience Him too as the God who cares enough when I didn’t have a pencil or a pen… That is not a petty God but a personal God. I store my treasures of beauty, dignity and brand to Him…

Irregardless of my investment and the timeline my hair has had so far, “My times are in His hand…” Psalm 31:15

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Great Hair Free

And it grew on and on. This was the stage my hair was at before I was quacked

Romans 8:32 “He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?.

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My new look after the experience. Loved it. Coz I hadd beauty inside. Beauty outside. Inside out!




We all want to be happy in life and everybody always try to have comforts and pleasure to fully enjoy life. But consequently we find out that in our daily lives we might be lacking something..The joy that we desire. Someone quoted that life is not a bed of roses. There are the normal ups and downs of life.



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We want to feel leadership


Submitting to leadership and the leaders that be brings about blessings uncountable. The leader may not be ‘perfect’ but when the fear of God informs how we perceive them, (where we see them as chosen by God and though weak or strong, good or bad – we see them as worthy of respect and honor), then there is a grace of favor that God bestows upon the followers and the leader. After all, there is no one who wants to be called a leader and have no one following. They may not be right in your eyes but there the ‘WHY’ God has chosen them for the said season…

God is able to change them, remove them from leadership, replace them, reprimand them or use them or do what He alone can do as God. AS.GOD.

Deborah of old sang in Judges 5:2-3

When Leaders Lead Then Deborah and Barak the son of Abinoain sang on that day, saying: “When leaders lead in Israel, when the people willingly offer themselves, bless the LORD! Hear, O kings! Give ear, O princes! I, even I, will sing to the  Lord. I will sing; I will make music to the Lord, the God of Israel.

The Israelites had done evil as had become their usual and were set on edge – this time it was the hand of Jabin, king of Canaan. And did they cry…

God raised a prophetess, Deborah who spoke counsel to the people and instructed Barak to take an army and head to battle.

He said was afraid… and he was.. he would go only if Deborah went with him. She did not ridicule him but strengthened him. Only the glory would not be be his. Fair enough.

If it was in today’s #NyeriTimes, maybe she would have poured hot water on him for not being ‘the man’. But as we said earlier God will do what he alone can do. AS.GOD.

So he routed the army under Sisera and after the strike the shepherd, scatter the sheep scenario, victory came when Jael, a woman who was a family friend to the enemy realized it was her to save her nation.

God did it through her and yes through him even in His way and leadership was felt.

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